Imposter: On booze, crippling self-doubt and coming out the other side

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'A book of great openness and courage' - Sir John Kirwan Country boy and television host Matt Chisholm seemed to have it all. With a plum job on TV and a great family, his future looked bright. But behind the happy facade, Matt was barely coping, driving himself into the ground with work and withdrawing from everyone but his family. One day something snapped. After admitting in a social media post that he was struggling with depression, Matt was shocked at the outpouring of public support. It would be the catalyst for him to face up to his unhappiness and change his life. Growing up in Otago, Matt was the sensitive youngest child in a family of four boys, with a difficult home life in which high standards were paramount. After trying his first drink at fourteen, Matt found himself in a decades-long spiral of aimlessness and heavy drinking - despite the physical and mental toll the booze took on him. It would take Matt until his thirties to find success as a journalist, always doubting himself and his abilities. After finally giving up drinking at 34, his career went from strength to strength, but the unrelenting pressure of having to perform and his own perfectionist tendencies came at a high cost and he was diagnosed with depression. Something had to give. Matt and his wife made a choice to leave Auckland and his job, moving to Central Otago with their two young boys to build their own home and enjoy a simpler life. Imposter reveals the hard-won wisdom Matt has learnt along the way. Poignant and inspiring, this is a helpful book for anyone who is battling their demons.

Former TVNZ Sunday reporter and television host of Survivor New Zealand, and Celebrity Treasure Island, Matt Chisholm is well-known to many Kiwis as an authentic, down-to-earth reporter. As someone who has spent 13 years telling other people's stories, Matt has an instinctive knack for a good story. This time he is telling his.

'Our suicide rate in NZ is something we all need to work to change, especially in our men. When people like Matt come out and be open and honest about those struggles, it gives people hope and can directly save lives. It's so hard when you are in there, and little bits of hope can keep you going. Great courage and openness, Matt.' Sir John Kirwan